Forever ignored always alone

I’m sick of this life. I really am. I’m forever ignored and forgotten about. And always alone. 

Being in hospital 24/7 is so hard. I don’t think people understand how hard it is. I think they think it’s easy. I get fed I have a room I’m looked after. But it’s not. It’s the opposite of easy. It’s horrible. Your in your room nearly the whole time. You have the odd group now and then and your life is based around meal times and when to eat. It’s so lonely. The only conversations we ever have as patients is about the illness and the hospital as that’s all we know. That’s all we know to talk about. 

This isn’t a life. 

I’m sick of “friends” ignoring me. I’m sick of being alone. I’m sick of being cast aside. I’m sick of life. I just want my eyes to close and never open.  I want this all to be over with.