I can’t remember the last time I didn’t have a drink. I can’t remember the last day I didn’t turn to alcohol. I can’t remember it. As far as I look back each day involved having a drink. I can’t remember a day without drink. That’s how much I’m struggling lately and that’s also what half my weight gain is. Not food. But alcohol. I’m aware of that but I cant stop. I see the rolls my stomach now has but still turn to a glass. Or two. Or three.  I know that’s what’s making me piling the pounds on. I know it’s more alch than drink. But I can’t stop. I crave it. The feeling it gives me. I have to have it. I hide the bottle away but always go and find it. I hide it in my overnight bag when I stay at my partners. I use mouth wash or chewing gum to hide the smell. I have a problem. One of many. And don’t know what to do about it. 

10 thoughts on “Drink 

      1. It got to the point where I had to choose between my family and alcohol. I just decided to stop. Stopping made more sense. The advantages outweighed the disadvantages. The hangovers, the arguments, the guilt. I found other activities to fill the gap left by alcohol. I have a very addictive personality so I tend to jump into everything 100%. I also have OCD so I have to be very careful. It’s small steps. Try one day without alcohol?

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      1. That’s wonderful! There is a solution. I know it’s tough but I remember I used to sneak drinks behind my partners back too and couldn’t manage my life after a while. I’m thankful I’m free and been sober and happy for well over a year now. Have you tried to quit before??


      2. I am sure your body and mind will crave alcohol over the next few days. That’s a normal feeling. It helps to stay busy with work or hobbies and find things to do to help other people. Helping others and writing (like on here) really helps me when I want to drink. I know I personally can’t drink anymore because I didn’t like who I was or what I was doing with my life.

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