Reality is I’m struggling. I feel fat all day every day. I sit in a pub and drink two drinks in less than five minutes. I crave food yet feel grotesque. I’m alone. I have no one. Reality is my life isn’t great. It really isn’t. I have no job. No money. No friends. Nothing. Yes I have a boyfriend and it’s great but the moment he’s at work the moment he’s busy I have nothinh. It shouldn’t be like this. I crave the tipsy feeling all day everyday. Most of my weight gain is drink related I just crave it so much. Im not doing well. But because I’m putting weight on everyone thinks I’m fine. Everyone thinks I’m Coping and doing well. But I’m not I’m depressed. I’m alone. I want to get drunk. Eat shit and get drunk. I need help.