When 

When will I stop counting calories? When will I stop feeling fat?When will I stop measuring myself by my thighs and the gap I no longer have? When will my day not be controlled by food? When? When will I stop feeling lonely? When will I move on? When will I no longer feel a failure? When will I have something to smile about?When will I stop wishing I was dead? When will I stop taking laxatives?

When? 

When will all of this stop? 

5 thoughts on “When 

      1. An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.

        “It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”

        The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”

        The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

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  1. I relate to you in 9/10 of all you wrote. A month ago I was stuck in a worse place than I am at now. Today I am having a better day than I have had in a while. I’m still worried about my weight, I’m still thinking possible ways to die…but days like today, I look at these better days like today as small victories. Maybe tomorrow will be worse, maybe it will be better…I just work on one day at a time.

    Maybe try and not dwell on the ‘when it will all end” too much and just be. Do whatever exercises you are told could help with the day to day and just take each day as it comes and work hard to make small victories every day that you can cling to.

    You are never alone…I’m not really there but you do have a family online. And we are here.
    x
    Deb

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