Love 

Love. Four letters. A tiny word. But a very big meaning. To love someone is one of the best feelings any human can experience. I’m not talking about unconditional love. I’m not talking about the love you have between a family. I’m talking about falling head over heels in love with someone. That someone you call your partner who you hope to marry. Who you can see yourself spending the rest of your life is. But the question is. When do you stop loving someone. When. When you’ve had a break up how long do you wait till the love you felt for that person stops. A month. Several months. A year. Well it’s been nearly 7 months and I can tell you it still hasn’t stopped. I go to bed praying the next day I won’t. Praying it will have stopped. But it hasn’t. How do you get over someone you were madly deeply in love with. When does it happen. The point is I still can’t imagine spending my life with anyone else but I can’t go back there I can’t. It wasn’t good. It was bad. It was toxic. It didn’t work. But that doesn’t stop me being heartbroken. I just want this to end 

In fact tonight I think it does. This ends now. I’ve cleared all memories I’ve binned all photos. I’m done. Tonight is the start of a new life. I’m ready. 

2 thoughts on “Love 

  1. I do not think you will ever get over that person completely. That person will always hold a special place in your heart. However, you need to pick yourself back up and move on. That person was not in God’s plan for you. For whatever reason that may be. Right now focus on yourself and your well being. It is okay to be selfish sometimes.
    Even though my boyfriend from college was abusive, he will always have a place in my heart. We shared a lot of good times and bad times together. However, he was the love of my life for almost 5 years. It is difficult to disconnect yourself completely when you had a connection for that long.
    Your heartache is normal. I will pray for you. Stay strong!!

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  2. I used to work with a girl and never let on how much I liked her. Ten years later I would walk through crowds in cities, and see the back of her head. Of course it was never her. Somebody else will come along though – and you won’t even realise you haven’t thought about that other person. And then (if you’re me) you’ll feel guilty about that too… lol

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