Goodbye. Goodbye to all those who know me. Goodbye to everyone. Those who know me those who don’t. Those who love me those who don’t goodbye. 

I’ve hung on for so long. I really have. But I can’t keep hanging on. I really can’t. I want to die more than anything. I want to close my eyes and for them never to open again. I want this all to be over with. I really really really do 

I still will and still do believe that suicide is a selfish act. And that is one of the reasons I’m sill here. I won’t sona selfish act. I’m not a selfish person. But it’s all becoming too much for me. I can’t live the life I’m living. It’s not living. I’m meteelt exsisiting and there is no point. I may as well be dead. I wasn’t put in this world to live I life. I have flaws after flaws after flaws. I’m ungrateful I’m sad. I’m pathetic. I’m alone. No one will notice I’m gone. No one will care. Everyone will get over it. There won’t even be anything for them to “get over”‘that’s how little of an impact I make in people’s lives. I’m not just saying all of this. I really do believe it. I really do want to die. I just wish I had the guts. I wish I had the strength. That’s how pathetic I am. I can’t even end my own life. 

9 thoughts on “Goodbye 

  1. It’s is not pathetic to not have the courage to kill your self it only means you are human. I attempted suicide early this year so I have been there and I understand what you are going through. It may not feel like it right now, but things do get better.

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  2. I don’t know you but I promise your life matters. Jesus doesn’t make mistakes, that means your aren’t a mistake. Cling to someone who has more strength than you right now. Mine is Jesus. I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for him. I’m the most weakest person without him, but with him I’m strong and he keeps me hanging on. Please hold on. You are worth it.

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