Goodbye. Goodbye to all those who know me. Goodbye to everyone. Those who know me those who don’t. Those who love me those who don’t goodbye.
I’ve hung on for so long. I really have. But I can’t keep hanging on. I really can’t. I want to die more than anything. I want to close my eyes and for them never to open again. I want this all to be over with. I really really really do
I still will and still do believe that suicide is a selfish act. And that is one of the reasons I’m sill here. I won’t sona selfish act. I’m not a selfish person. But it’s all becoming too much for me. I can’t live the life I’m living. It’s not living. I’m meteelt exsisiting and there is no point. I may as well be dead. I wasn’t put in this world to live I life. I have flaws after flaws after flaws. I’m ungrateful I’m sad. I’m pathetic. I’m alone. No one will notice I’m gone. No one will care. Everyone will get over it. There won’t even be anything for them to “get over”‘that’s how little of an impact I make in people’s lives. I’m not just saying all of this. I really do believe it. I really do want to die. I just wish I had the guts. I wish I had the strength. That’s how pathetic I am. I can’t even end my own life.